#he's not a solo kind of person

[deathfavor]

Anonymous said: seiroku, could you ever see yourself being friends [or in a relationship but that seems far fetched for you] with anyone? if you could choose at least one person and they'd accept who would you pick?

   “  That’s rather rude of you to just make an assumption like that.  “  Seiroku raises an eyebrow slightly with an unimpressed stare at the comment, letting silence add to the weight of his remark before he decides to actually answer what has been asked of him.

   It wasn’t that Seiroku didn’t want that connection with others. On the contrary. If they were equals, then it was feasible.. But that wasn’t in the spirit of the Obsidian Eight. Despite the claims of brotherhood - they really were all just a pack of monsters who were pursuing the same matter. Smaller groups within it perhaps, but the bonds weren’t particularly strong if he really thought about it. Especially with certain members. He’d made the efforts and for what? Nothing. Nothing, every single time. Really, he didn’t know why he tried anymore.

   “  Maybe some day, assuming I live to that point. I’m not opposed to the thought of friends or a relationship with someone. But I agree that the odds are not in my favor for either of those, one way or another.  “  He shrugs his shoulders slightly, expression calm and carefully crafted.  It was a nice thought though. Having a friend, or group of friends.. Even a partner. They weren’t such bad thoughts, although both thoughts were certainly strange contemplations when he’d only focused on a path of hatred and bloodshed. It wasn’t the sort of contemplation that came up normally.  ( Except after a few drinks, when it’d slither in like a snake to the coop. Thoughts he should cut off but couldn’t help but to observe.  )

   “  One person? How does one even choose that? I don’t know. “  He tilts his head for a moment.  “  Someone who won’t disappoint me.  “  Someone who won’t betray him.

[arsenicflame]

It's a time-honoured tradition- every time Sam comes across Izzy (and Ed) in their travels, he asks Izzy to marry him. And every time, Izzy turns him down.

At this point, Sam is asking more for the sake of it than any belief Izzy will ever say yes, a remnant of childhood dedication touched with 30 years of heartbreak and regret- though even now, a small part of him still holds out hope. Sam's promises have only got more extravagant over the years, from a job as his first mate, to a captaincy, a fleet at his command, a whole fucking island if that's what Izzy wants- but he knows it isn't though, not really. If Izzy was ever going to agree to marry him, to leave his life and go with Sam, it wouldn't be for anything Sam could offer him. Izzy never did care for flashy shows of wealth, for a ship or to be captain. The only thing that ever mattered to him was loyalty given, and loyalty shown in return. 

It all comes to a head after Stede left and came back, after Izzy lost a toe, lost his leg. Sam hasn't seen him since before things with Ed started to really slide off the rails, before stress permanently set into the lines of Izzy’s face. So, when he sees a dishevelled man with a hoof for a leg in a no-name port, he doesn't even consider the idea that he might know him. It's only when he turns towards him, and Sam catches a glance at those oh too familiar tattoos, he realises this is Izzy, his Izzy, that stands before him.

Knowing Izzy's discomfort with pity, he doesn't treat him any differently than he would in years gone by, positioning himself in Izzy's line of sight before approaching and sweeping him up into a bone crushing hug. 

“Israel-goddamn-Hands!” he exclaims, as Izzy grumbles back a begrudging “Samuel-fucking-Bellamy”, a tradition almost as old as their friendship itself. Izzy might not hug him back, but he can’t keep the corner of his mouth from twitching, just for a second.

(If Sam holds Izzy a little tighter and a little longer than usual, well. That's his business)

By the time Sam lets go, most of the crew has appeared in the town square, drawn in by the commotion. They may have given Izzy his leg and welcomed him as one of them, but still there’s an underlying tension, with nobody quite ready to set aside everything that happened before the Kraken. Seeing him cosying up to an unknown man sets everyone on edge, unsure whether to come to their first mate’s aid, or to assume that they've been betrayed once again.

When Ed sees that the yelling was Sam, his hand goes tense where it's held in Stede's. He knows the routine, has seen it more times than he can count, but as he watches them part he realises that this is the first time in a long time he's unsure of what Izzy's response will be.

Knowing that something’s different, knowing that Izzy's feeling vulnerable already, Sam doesn't go for the same flashy proposal he’s been giving for years. He doesn't promise Izzy the world, he doesn't cause a scene (or, any more of a scene than he already has, anyway). He looks at the fractured man in front of him, takes his face in his hands, and says the exact same thing to him he said when they were little more than boys. “Israel, I have to ask you. I know what you'll say, but I have to try. Come with me. Marry me and sail away with me. I'll keep you safe”

And Izzy… hesitates. He glances over at Ed, at Stede, and says to Sam “...We’re staying in port for a week. Ask me again then”

That's the moment Sam knows there is something deeply, horribly, wrong. He's not just looking at an Izzy who got seriously injured in a fight and is struggling to cope, this is something so much bigger than that- and that Ed has something to do with it. Izzy wouldn't even be considering leaving if he didn't. Whether it was negligence or something more sinister, Sam doesn't yet know, but he intends to find out.

[syn0vial]

boba with a lightsaber in "legacy of the force"

highlights:

the fact that the scene starts with boba noticing that jaina is looking at him with "real compassion" and being like, "nuh-uh. absolutely not. putting a stop to this right the fuck now."

the way jaina draws her lightsaber all carefully like she's trying not to trigger Man With Notorious Beef Against Jedi, and he just pulls his own lightsaber out of nowhere like, "oh yeah i have one of those too :^)"

(i need everyone to know that this encounter was prefaced by an extended scene of beviin and medrit fussing over boba's shitty durasteel armor and basically forbidding him from going to spar with jaina until he swapped it out for something more lightsaber-resistant. so, after all this build-up of, "you CANNOT afford to take risks with someone wielding a lightsaber, what, are you TRYING to end up like jango," the fact that boba just casually pulls out a lightsaber of his own is extra funny to me)

(everyone is being so mindful of the fett family's traumatic history with lightsabers and meanwhile boba is just like, "EXPOSURE THERAPY OR NOTHING, LET'S FUCKING GO")

boba holding the lightsaber "like a hammer." can't decide if he's holding it like that bc it's genuinely more comfortable for him or if he's intentionally playing up his inexperience to get jaina to lower her guard.

the way he stalks towards jaina while letting the tip of the lightsaber drag against the ground. that's so menacing and i love it.

all that build-up and once he's in actual striking distance he just deactivates the lightsaber and sucker-punches her in the stomach LMAO

the fact that he uses the lightsaber as a FUCKING KNUCKLEDUSTER

he's such a mean and horrible old man. i love him <3

[redbean-nom]

fascinated by the implied fennec-ventress-phee friend group in tbb. even more interesting (funny) when you add boba in there during the tbobf era.

[wolfblood-of-anubis]

Nina Martin, daughter of Hades, god of the dead, and ruler of the underworld.

Fabian Rutter, son of Athena, goddess of wisdom, warfare, and battle strategy.

Amber Millington, daughter of Aphrodite, goddess of love, beauty, sexuality, and passion.

[reginalusus]

I showed your 90'anime style DC arts with Twoface and Jason to my fiance and he thought it was from some kind of movie. He even tried to search for it.

What I'm trying to say is we really enjoy that style and your art! Amazing job!

WHAT, this is so kind, I'm sorry for tricking him, lmaoooo. <3

It's so weird to me because while I'm actually animating and editing them, every single time I'm like, "LMAOOO, this doesn't even look legit, what am I doing."

Anyway, this is very sweet and oughhhhh, it's sort of hard for me to see it but thank you. <3

[jrueships]

thinking about how josh always tries playing around WITH other teammates, but always interacts with diggs as if he is something extremely, extraordinarily precious to him. I'm not saying he doesn't care about everyone else, he cares about everyone, but when you're in love, the person you're in love with happens to cross your mind more times than a few.

Like. Josh throwing snow on Gabe Davis and not on stef (even tho he knows Gabe is very protective of his birkin !!) And just letting stef walk by snow-free while he and Gabe banter (in front of stef) (very important to note). Now, diggs was also wearing fancier things than Gabe in cost comparison. He had more than a birkin bag to protect.. Josh knows Stef loves living lavish, and his outfit was probably brand new bcs he also knows stef loves trying new things.. so Josh respects the boundaries that he knows and only plays around with Gabe, who's a little materialistic too but not as much as Stef.

Josh sees Stef coming, he stops talking to his teammates and does a little dance. He knows Stef finds his dancing funny, so he does some dancing!

Thinking about how they were paired during the pandemic, and had to bond literally over call of duty. Thinking about how Diggs was new to the game and how Josh never exploited him for it in the game, or complained about his skill level. Thinking about how Diggs recalls Josh always stopping to heal him as if the silly little call of duty game shenanigans were a honeymoon worthy of forever memory.

Stef keeps headbutting him in the middle of his pregame pep talk, instead of playing off that, Josh keeps his focus and doubles down on his leadership position by continuing his speech unphased. It's not ignoring, though, it's providing a stable foundation for Stef to bounce off of and keep him grounded. Stef's constant touches to allen during his speech let's him know he's doing good in what he's trying to accomplish: being inspiring while also being strong. Josh's strong composure let's Stef know that even with every headbutt, he's not budging, he'll always be right there for Stef to hold and remember who's there in his corner. There's someone stable in his corner, someone who isn't tired or intimidated by his energy, someone willing to observe the options and choose the best one without Stef having to even advise him on it

Although he's talking to everyone, he keeps his hand on STEF'S helmet to let him know He knows he's there, and He appreciates him being there. There's no joking about it. When stef pushes his way into the middle of the huddle just to be by Josh, it's not to hear how funny he can be or how serious, and while he can be either, it's just not the focus right now. The focus, the Need is simply to be By Josh.

And you don't get that kind of devotion from Diggs by playing around with his emotions, his wants, his needs. You don't get that kind of devotion by not being devoted yourself.

Josh Allen is 110% dedicated to loving his teammates, to loving football, and to loving Stefon Diggs.

Thinking about how much Diggs needs that .

[rainingincale]

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[kindahoping4forever]

Ashton Interview on "Gone Fishkin" for Idobi Radio - 11 July 2024

Also now available to listen thru Spotify

[kowabungadoodles]

drinking and doing ad-hoc repair surgery on a book from 1994, but pretending I'm a grizzled detective removing a bullet

[infizero]

sorry im filled with numb rage and other emotions rn but the fact that wilbur soot is so good at music is so fucking infuriating. this sounds so stupid but like genuinely makes me so fucking mad that he brought such fantastic music into the world, music that I PERSONALLY CONNECTED TO ON A DEEP EMOTIONAL LEVEL, and he ended up being such a piece of shit. like how hard is it to not be fucking awful it makes my blood fucking boil

[thecityofdoors]

was getting so fed up & irritated w astarion this playthrough that when i failed the persuasion check to get him to save the spawn & he decided to leave, i was just like fine!! see if i care!!!!! i’ll just get a hireling!! whatever!!!! it’ll be great not to have to put up with you anymore. good fucking riddance. good. bye.

so why do i miss him so much?? his exaggerated gestures. his petty little comments. i was convinced i didn’t like him, but against my will the fail elf has grown on me. ugh.

[jonathanrogersartist]

Last night's impromptu rewatch of The Phantom Menace was... really interesting.

This film is, strangely enough, a lot like Rogue One, in that it has such a clunky beginning and middle, but by the end it finally finds steam enough for a visually impressive big blowout climax. And I always forget how disarming the first twenty minutes or so is, with the style of dialogue and performances, and you have to just force yourself to adjust to the wavelength.

This movie's most crippling problems, for me, is that it has this very sandpaper-dry tone for most of the runtime, and it's pacing is so geriatric outside of the podrace and the final battle. This movie desperately needed more action to liven it up, or at least more comedy that's not Jar Jar's kid-friendly antics.

That said.... I really have softened on Jar Jar over the years, and yes, that's in big part because of my sympathy for Ahmed Best, and because I am aware now of how much passion and work he put into the role.

If anything, poor Jake Lloyd is harder for me to watch than Jar Jar. Because at least a wacky alien with its own style of speech can have easier suspension of disbelief for me, than a kid actor who's just not really cutting it in the natural-delivery department. DISCLAIMER: THIS IS NOT HIS FAULT. THIS IS NOT A HATE-POST FOR JAKE. HE WAS ONLY A CHILD DOING HIS BEST.

The bigger takeaway on this watch, and I ALWAYS fall into this trap, is being reminded of how Lucas is blessed/cursed with a fertile imagination and a firm grasp of mythic storytelling, BUT is so tone-deaf with the actual writing of those ideas. The result is that, when I think about them from a distance, I think the prequels are a work of brilliant storytelling, and I convince myself their flaws are wildly exaggerated... only to be reminded how cringey they are in execution when I actually sit down and rewatch them.

Like, I GET why fans wholesale rejected this at the time, and why all following media has been scrambling to retcon or reinterpret the things people didn't like about them to this day.

I'll return to Attack of the Clones tonight. Let's see how that goes...

[magentagalaxies]

update if you're anxiously awaiting the follow-up to my post from last night: i went to the open mic and performed one of my aubrey monologues!! tbh this performance was the best any of my aubrey performances have gone so far (tho to be fair that's a bit of a low bar. i don't mean to be self-deprecatting or discredit the people who have seen my performances so far and liked them, i'm mostly judging from how it feels to be performing which doesn't always line up with outside perceptions etc.)

idk if it's at a level yet where i'd want to post the video bc there were two main spots where i know my pacing could have been better, and also the audience barely laughed (which was fine bc there was barely anyone in the audience and they were spread out throughout the room and people tend to not laugh as frequently when they're by themselves) but that might make the audio seem weird

but as for positives: most of the people at the open mic had their notebooks/papers/phones/etc. with them bc they were trying out new material and had to check it as they went, which is a fine and normal thing to do, but it really made me stand out that i had my monologue completely memorized (which was very cool bc like. yes i've done the uncle reg monologue more than any other but i have revised some pieces so they were new, and i didn't even practice the monologue at all during the day leading up to the open mic! it's just in me!)

i still need to work on my physicality a bit more but wow this stage made such a difference. for one thing it's the first actual deliberate performance venue i've done aubrey at (i had three shitty classroom performances and one at a coffee shop which even tho it technically had a stage in the corner it clearly wasn't the main purpose of the room). and even more important it's a stage i've performed on so many times in a different context (with my improv troupe) that i felt more comfortable walking around and using the full space rather than standing still

interestingly even tho i was definitely an outlier in many ways compared to the other comedians (youngest performer, only performer who's not a cis man, potentially the only queer performer tho i can't be certain of that since i don't know some of the other comedians on that level) i actually really loved that contrast bc it brought more energy to my piece (and i have a high tolerance level for cishet men, especially in comedy. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ i am who i am).

surprisingly i was not the only "extra" comedian (as in, a comedian that requires things other than the bare essentials to perform their set) but that's just bc my favorite improv scene partner was also performing tonight and he did a whole bit that involved a candle, two lighters, and a tarp, which made my character-schtick seem average in comparison lmao

i'll probably do another one when i can (they're the first thursday of every month, i might be in toronto for july's show but i'll probably be around for august)

[spotsupstuff]

i ADORE yoyr skills in making characters with wildly complex personalities. how do you do it this well

THANK YOU!!! I HAVE NO FECKIN IDEA!!!

i usually just start with a concept (heehoo iterator who doesn't care for their puppet and the puppet has a blankie thrown over it and there's creepy peepy teefs under there) and then built off from that (the character now leads death itself to its family no matter how much it hurts and tears away at it because it recognizes this is ultimately the best thing that can happen to them and it Only wishes for the best for its family cuz it loves them a lot. no matter what it will take, its family will be alright.)- OH a VERY important thing for character making is interconnecting them with other characters!!! that is literally the Most important thing Ever imo. and then details. details are what build the complexity!

the more interactions with other characters and the world you put the peepo thru, the more shaped they will be, i suppose? while still keeping a core idea very clear

also taking inspirations from other characters and then remixing n combining these different inspirations is a valid thing to do. one of Notos' big inspirations is, for example, Wednesday Addams from that netflix show! sometimes the inspiration comes from a certain pack of feelings i get from a song/situation, like for example Zephyr and Johanka by Brotosauři/Joan of Arc in general. Johanka and where i first heard it, the way i first sung it, was already full of so many things that simply applying it to Zephyr gave her a complex personality

and as always -claps- don't forget to give your character low points and weaknesses. but ALSO don't forget to give them their shining moments and strengths

[aqqleshiqqing-archive]

y'know as much as i see ruby as my son (and I still do) truth is outside of being a selfshipper I actually do kin ruby - and thought id stay to be a ruby kin but my selfshipping tendencies got the better of me LMAO